Decision...

Once again, I apologize for not updating the blog sooner. I continue to be behind with replying to emails and sending out thank you cards - never quite catching up...

On Friday afternoon, Dr. Pattisapu called to give us the decision of the conference. Ananda's AVM/aneurysm was considered inoperable - invasive surgery would be too risky. Therefore, Gamma Knife surgery is the planned course of action. Both Dr. Pattisapu and Dr. Hellinger will be performing the surgery, so the scheduling is dependent on the coordination of their schedules.

So now, we are waiting (once again) for the dates of her treatment. Will this take a few days? A week? A month? Longer? When I picked up Ananda at the bus stop today - she came running off the bus, asking me: "Did you get it?" ??? "Did you get the dates of my treatment?" My heart sank, as I told her there was no news yet. Tonight, at Girl Scouts, Ananda overheard me mention "aneurysm" to her troop leader - which we decided not to tell her about - and she immediately got upset. Ugh. And over the weekend, she told Melanie, "I wish I was a normal girl and didn't have an AVM..." Ugh, again.

Throughout her entire ordeal, Ananda has had a steadfast optimism that I found strength in. So when I see her optimism starting to drop in instances like this, it really worries me - keeping her in good spirits is my biggest priority. "Soon," I tell her, "soon."